Self/ Expression.Not mutually exclusive.If ever I had an inhibition, this would be it.
harmful heart-to-hearts
unsmiling eyes on top a teeth-baring mouth
deadened air displaced by human bodies
deafening questions about my ego.
understanding I can’t be fully understood.
understanding when others say complete comprehension is impossible.
understanding that I forgot I can’t be fully understood.
knowing that I’ll forget it soon.
-excerpt from bliss, 2023
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A genuine moment that doesn’t matter. Smiling because we’re supposed to. Taking up space while contributing nothing. “Am I full of it?” I know that no matter how hard I try to express myself, I’ll never quite get what I want: Perfect Understanding. People say it’s okay that no one ever really gets each other. And it is. but when I remember
Perfect Understanding, I begin to forget.
Hevel.
Smoke;
Meaningless-ness;
A blowing of the wind.
- Hevel, stippling self-portrait; 2018
Ultimately, we are going to expire. With every moment, we are closer to leaving our bodies. Our accomplishments will be lost, and our pleasures will be gone. Our skin will return to dust, and dust to smoke, and smoke dispels. What’s left is soul.